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There is a secret that we keep
We are compelled to do what we must do
We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden

::Tuesday, April 15, 2008::
days before exAM!!!

Two weeks in a row i went to Empire beach with Azim's family, first week, main flying boat and jet ski..then the next sunday was the sunday splash...i'm reluctant to play anything that day..due to Public Sector Economics test the next day...pi last2 main jua banana boat...and zai freak out wah time gugur ke laut main banana boat...i was sooo scared zai na pandai swimming n all...naik motorboat zai tarus na mo sambung main..hehe..n the next day sakit leher...karau wah the whole day..i had to face my whole body f kan liat belakang or siring..





the result of two week (in which kami ke beach from 1pm!!)
from this...
(Yasmin and the tanned Zai)


the ok facial complexion...to...

the bejerawat Zai...mostly affectedd area-chin! ugh...sad~maybe also due to stresses of school works...and the amai me.


Last week, 5th of April, went to Temburong for a study trip.


the sleepy Azim and Zai
the new bumiputera commercial building in Temburong
The jet boat driver(?)
The urban development class and lecturer (in the jet boat)
also..the urban developmet class
the four of us are not part of the class..

advertising Tronky (Temburong Rest house restaurant)
Shik and Zai

Zai and Emy
the only tame Payau in the Batang Duri zoo


Yesterday night, the renovating Mosque's dome


at Yayasan after star gazing...i'm confused by the moving cloud



My sister driving..scary...i had to be her next driving teacher

::Monday, April 14, 2008::
relation of pimple and internal health

What do you see when you look in the mirror? According to Chinese medicine, your face is a window to your health. Your forehead, nose, chin, right cheek, left cheek: Each of these five face zones provides clues to what is going on inside your body… if you know what to look for. And Maoshing Ni, an anti-aging expert and doctor of Chinese medicine, does. Better known as Dr. Mao, this healer shares insights from his book, Secrets of Self Healing (Avery, 2007). As LifeScript’s natural health specialist, Dr. Mao decodes those facial clues and helps you figure out what’s ailing you…

Waking up with a pimple on your nose or a rash across your cheek can be slightly embarrassing, from a vanity standpoint. Our typical reaction is to dab on concealer and hope no one notices. But have you ever wondered what caused the blemish in the first place?

Most people don’t realize that their face offers information about what’s going on beneath the skin’s surface. “Your body speaks a unique language to communicate the imbalances within it,” Dr. Mao says in his book. “Over the past 5,000 years, Chinese medicine has mastered the art and science of reading the body’s language.”

Dr. Mao’s face assessment puts your health in your hands. Who better to recognize subtle changes in your appearance than you? Your reflection offers visual cues to what may be happening with your heart, stomach, hormones and even your mind and spirit. Go ahead, take a look. What does your face reveal about you?

1. Forehead

Corresponding element: According to Chinese medicine, the forehead corresponds to the fire element. This connection indicates an association with the heart and small intestine organ network, as well as the mind and spirit.

What to look for: When examining your forehead, look for redness and small blood vessels that appear as discoloration, which could indicate a heart problem, Dr. Mao says. Skin discoloration could also be caused by a recent emotionally-charged experience, such as a breakup or loss. It is common for people whose emotions are in turmoil on a regular basis to have a constant furrow between their eyebrows. (See related article: Raw Emotions: 5 Ways to Buffer Your Suffering)

What it means: According to Dr. Mao, a heart attack can often be foretold by a subtle bluish-green hue on the forehead. If you have discoloration on your forehead accompanied by heart palpitations, dizziness, shortness of breath, and tingling or pain in your left arm, schedule an appointment with a cardiologist or immediately visit an emergency room if necessary.

2. Nose

Corresponding element: Your nose corresponds to the earth element, indicating a connection to the stomach, spleen and pancreas network.

What to look for: Symptoms of internal discord typically show up as a pimple on the tip or side of your nose, Dr. Mao says. Broken capillaries or redness across the bridge of the nose may reveal alcohol abuse or simply mean a person is under excessive worry and stress. Both causes put a strain on the internal organ network associated with the earth element.

What it means: People with blemishes or discoloration on their nose also likely suffer from indigestion, constipation or diarrhea. Think back to your dinner last night or lunch the day before. Did you eat a lot of spicy, deep-fried, fatty, or rich foods? How about chocolate? If the answer is “yes,” your choice of cuisine could be the problem. Your body is indicating its displeasure with your culinary selection.

3. Chin

Corresponding element: The chin area of your face corresponds to the water element. It is associated internally to your kidney and bladder organ network, including the hormonal system and glands.

What to look for: According to Dr. Mao, blemishes, discoloration and dark patches of skin around the chin and mouth could indicate problems within the kidneys or bladder. Recurrent acne breakouts around this area of the face may be due to a hormonal imbalance. The problem is most often due to the body producing excess estrogen or testosterone and tends to be a particular issue when paired with irregular menstruation in women and prostate symptoms in men.

Be sure to also check out your philtrum – the indentation just above your top lip. This small area relates to the uterus and ovaries in women and the prostate and genitals in men, Dr. Mao says. Horizontal lines, blemishes or discoloration across the philtrum may indicate infertility issues due to problems such as endometriosis or uterine fibroid cysts.

What it means: People who have a small chin, according to Chinese medicine, have a genetic predisposition to weakness in their kidney and bladder network. However, this doesn’t mean that small-chinned people will develop kidney disease, Dr. Mao says. The information is simply an alert that a tendency may exist, and patients can choose to make behavioral changes to prevent the development of a condition.

4.Right Cheek

Corresponding element: Your right cheek corresponds to the metal element, meaning this area of your face is connected to the lung and large intestine network.

What to look for: Problems in the lung and large intestine network present themselves as discoloration, blemishes and skin problems on the right cheek, according to Chinese medicine. A mild acne breakout, eczema patch or slight redness may mean a cold is coming on. Lung illness or upper respiratory ailments also trigger visual symptoms on the right cheek. (See related article: Cold and Flu Survival Guide)

What it means: People who are prone to respiratory allergies or asthma have a tendency to suffer from a reddish, scaly eczema, a slight rash or even a slight bluish-green hue along the right cheek. These symptoms often precede the actual attack, Dr. Mao says. The visual tip-offs are caused by too much heat or inflammation in the respiratory system or a lack of oxygen from bronchial constriction in the lungs.

5. Left Cheek

Corresponding element: In Chinese medicine, your left cheek corresponds to the wood element, meaning a correlation to the liver and gallbladder network.

What to look for: Broken capillaries and redness, especially up next to the bridge of your nose, indicate heat, inflammation or congestion of toxins in the liver, Dr. Mao says. Bulging veins, redness and rash can be symptoms of either a physical ailment or pent-up emotions in a patient. A yellowish hue under the left eye may indicate processing problems in the liver and gallbladder network.

What it means: Redness, discoloration, vein bulging or a rash on the left cheek may indicate that a person suffers from high blood pressure, gallstones or high triglycerides or cholesterol, Dr. Mao says. Problems in this part of the face can also reveal emotional issues, such as anger and depression, since the liver and gallbladder network includes the nervous system.

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::Monday, March 10, 2008::
end of mid-semester break

Tomorow i'll be having 2 test, Public sector econ and Math2...balum abis belajar...too much holidaying i guess....Aimi balik Aussie dah..i'm alone again...*sigh*

i'm too tired kan revise for my test tomorrow, hoping both test are MCQ type! Amin~uhm...why its always easier to revise and understand them, but when it come to test, tutorial and exam question, macam payah tia...esh esh esh....yatah gunanya tutorial tu dang~lalala~

uhm...now i'm worried about Azim..tadi ya ikut fitness zone amazing race (?), and he told me he's quite worried...sal dari last year and tadi he does not sweat at the gym and tadi jua during the race, he had to climb bukit di tasrk lama then turun ke sheraton and jubilee park, then ke mall gadong then ke fitness zone apa....like whoa, thats so tiring, yet he didd't sweat, and semua orang tagur. and he said he searched online and prolly its anhidrosis but theres actually many reason like hypothermia(?) or maybe....i don't know..mothernya suruh ke hospy but entah...slalu busy wah ya..this semester he's way way busier than zai...after this break barutah zai banyak kan dibuat...hmm...

anyway...i hav 3 topics to revise for PSE and 1 more topics on math2. and dari tadi zai main game, addicted zai wah..my gosh~dari dmalam tu, zai dwld game rah fon through opera mini 4 then bookmarknya gamejump...yesterday zai addicted main po*nmanager..(i know how it sound but its more like a business game...zai gigitan i only last for 2 month..i dont have the basic yatah).
Then dari tadi pagi zai main tower blox...and boring2 zai cari online gamenya...sampai ani zai main...

::Saturday, February 23, 2008::
so long

*lama sudah zai na liat national day show d tv (hehe) pagi2.kana bangunkan.liat tv brunei rah bilik my parent. sian jua ah tv brunei ani.rah bilik my parent and dapur ganya.

*duit zai abis...i have to save alot...monthly bill...maintenance g...esh esh...

*zai balum mandi..m soo lazy, its suppose to b a holiday!!

*next test on
25/2/8-international monetary system
10/3/8-intro to math2
15/3/8-intro to statistical math

*last wednesday main bowling with aimi and steph and the rest...surprisingly i didnt break my nail.

*i forgot what i want to say,...and it's always happen..

::Friday, February 01, 2008::
out of no where

...guess what i miss???
i miss those moment...the feeling of wondering if d guys like u too...and how he try to attract your attention, and seeing how hard he try to tell he likes you!! (when actually we know but we'r just playing plain dumb or we are really clueless) *erk*

..and i miss those moments when we always said "siapa suruh durang terfeeling.."

sometimes...most of the times...as much as i'm grateful, i think i am way too early to have such serious relationship, esp those who know me earlier... i wonder if i said to Azim if within a month or years..we could date any other girls/boys...have fun and enjoy the days with another person before we settle down..and see if we both eventually go back together one day, thats mean like yea we are together. hahaha..i'm so dead if i said that to him, kn? really hope he didn't read my blog anymore or he'll just miss this one nanti...i just had this crazy idea the other and i just feel letting it out..


btw solitude is closing down..oh its end today, i wanted to advertise for them, pi i just realize its too late, 31/2/2008 is their last day and they sold all books with 40% discount, and they even selling their furniture and sofa...







...and this is the picture the other the other day..when aimi had a crazy idea after we had our breakfast having murtabak at nur***z & iskandar curry house. We went to Pantai mentiri golf club, Pantai muara and exploring kg. mentiri and trying to find Brunei's cloths manufacturer but nowhere in sight. and we did all of this from 8.30am to 12pm! What a resourceful morning, esp that time i'm enjoying the december holiday!!











any idea if my pc running ok? o just miss something evil

::Wednesday, January 23, 2008::
such a week

it's been an upsetting week...gosh is it me or its just men really or will never understand women!!!


PMS oh?since when zai everyday PMS?hahah


i'm practically bored and all i wana do is going out...and i can't do that for some reason and its upsetting me....and tadi the whole morning and afternnon i've been sleeping!!! 12am-1pm is the only time i am actually awake coz i have math class, and i came in at 12.330am!!which is suppose to be 12.10am!! i'm wearing jeans to class just to go somewhere after class, but it didn't happen as i planned. dunno y i'm pissed. then balik rumah jap, thinking having anyone who wana go out wf me, but my dad won't let me go since my sister is sick..and i just slept the whole afternoon..and my sister i think feel guilty (maybe, coz shes asking me y am i not goin anywer) i wantd to bring her out but she's scared my mum will b mad since my sister didn't attend her class in the morning...uhm

i'm bored and i've been filling my tummy wf junks!! my god i feel bad...and i've been watching ugly betty dari tadi, erk...did i just miss amazing race asia???shoot...eh...no i've miss csi...gosh...

m officially clueless, and i can't sleep early this semester seeing all my class averagely start at 12 or 3pm!!! and it makes me LAZY!!! hope the tutorial classes will make me wake earlier in the morning....

and test will be next week and next next week i guess

::Thursday, January 17, 2008::
i've

Wonder how I've changed, I've been through a lot of things, expecting a lot from others, i've kept myself busy, anti-socializing, living in my own world, i can't stand lots of things, I've been i don't know...trying my best to keep all the sorrow out of sight..hate to know the truth, I've promises to fulfill and there's so little time. I'm tired smiling to those hypocrites.

i just want do things the best i could, but ends up leaving all the important things aside. i guess i'm just an ignorant person, and i think I am selfish.

::Sunday, January 13, 2008::
"New Word for Today"

Benign - 'be-nin'
can be use for gracious, showing kindness, favorable, mild type of disease, or harmless.


***Happy new year!!!! and to bazi!!!!happy belated 20th birthday again!!! didn' expect i texted somehow to a wrong number. i love you much much much!!

Tomorrow'll be another semester, 4th! another 4 semester (Amin!) to go...o wana know my result for last semester???
overall i got C+...
math for econ A,
macroeconomics B,
developmental psychology B (i thought i got an E, since i went out of the exam hall 1 hour+ out of 3 hours),
economic development C,
guidance & counseling C,
intro to discrete math D (which i expect an A!!!the paper was REALLY easy!perhap everyone find it easy)

anyway, i don't know what to say, theres tons to say, i mean recap but i might bore everyone, pokoknya my family and Azim's family are really getting close (well obviously our parent are very close dari damit, since everyone said babah azim selalu sleep over and bermain sama my mum's family)
we go convoy raya together (that's the reason i hardly at home time raya, sorry people!) we even go to KB beraya together. Spending the december holiday at KK together, the same hotel, the same room apartment. We went to manukan island. Celebrating new year together. and ni parentsnya kan bawa my parent ke labuan lagi...as azim said kami ni kan macam unofficially engaged..like whoa...can't believe he said that.

last year, late december, *to be continued*

Heal your brain

Heal your brain with these six boosters

Posted: Dec 31st 2007 8:00AM by Jacki Donaldson
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Six Uncommon Cures

Courtesy of Men's Health

Strange yet totally effective solutions to your most ailments

If you believe Johanna Brandt, she discovered an uncommon cure for cancer roughly 80 years ago while living in South Africa. The remedy: grapes. Bunches of them. In fact, all you can eat, because, well, grapes are all you can eat for 1 to 2 weeks, if you follow the plan outlined in Brandt's 1928 book The Grape Cure. Proof? She claims to have conquered her stomach cancer with the power of purple.

Needless to say, the medical establishment never swallowed grapes as the answer to cancer. And yet, as extreme--and potentially dangerous--as Brandt's prescription may be, today's researchers are uncovering compelling evidence that natural chemicals in the fruit of Vitis vinifera could help prevent and, yes, even treat certain types of tumors in mice. Granted, you wouldn't want to stake your life on a rodent in remission, but there are other examples of modern science finding that some really odd antidotes might be just crazy enough to work.

Bad back? Plug in your headphones. Bad breath? Screw in a lightbulb. These are two of the six strange-but-true treatments that we went from Australia to Israel to Ohio to gather. We aren't promising that any of these uncommon remedies will cure cancer, but they are guaranteed to be completely seedless.

Treat Sleep Apnea with a Didgeridoo
"A didgeri-what?" you ask. While aborigines in Australia have been playing this long wooden trumpet for centuries, it's just recently been redefined as a modern-day medical device. Researchers reporting in the British Medical Journal evaluated 25 people with sleep apnea--a breath-stealing condition caused by flabby throat muscles--and found that those who took 4 months of didgeridoo (DIH-jeh-ree-doo) lessons had about 31/2 times less daytime sleepiness than the folks who didn't blow their own horns. The newly minted musicians also snored significantly less. Credit this uncommon cure to vibrations that exercise tissue in the mouth and throat, says researcher Milo Puhan, Ph.D. "When these muscles are strengthened, the tongue has less tendency to obstruct the airway."

Make it work for you: If huffing on a wooden tube to treat your sleep apnea sounds a tad too weird, then you probably aren't familiar with the alternatives. The most commonly prescribed option is continuous positive airway pressure (CPAP), which involves spending every night hooked up to a machine that pumps air down your throat to keep it from collapsing. The other approach is surgery, and that's only 30 to 60 percent effective. Now are you ready to toot the didgeridoo? You can pick up a beginner-friendly model for about $80 at L.A. Outback (laoutback.com). And don't worry; it's intuitive to learn, says co-owner Barry Martin. You purse your lips and blow into it with the beat.

Use Text Messages to Quit Smoking
Any time you want a Marlboro, reach for your Motorola instead. Researchers at the University of Auckland, in New Zealand, compared how well two groups of smokers were doing in their attempts to quit. They discovered that those who received daily text messages containing tips on beating cravings plus motivational words from other quitters were twice as likely to kick ash as the people who went textless. What's more, rates of quitting for the cell-supported group remained high after 6 months. "People tend to carry their phones with them at all times, so it's a readily accessible means of providing cessation assistance," says study author Robyn Whittaker, M.D. "It's also relatively anonymous and confidential."

Make it work for you: When you're finally ready to stub your cigs, set a quit date and then go to backpackit.com, where you can write text messages to yourself and have them sent on preset days and times. Or, to prevent you from predicting every missive, you can use random delivery options, such as "later today" and "tomorrow morning." Either way, include words of encouragement and reminders about why you're quitting (such as a later exit from Earth). Next, go to your phone's message options and create a group list of your closest friends and family. Send a text message to all of them, asking that they shoot you encouragement on your quitting day and the days that follow. Save the messages you like and pull one up every time a craving strikes.

Beat Back Pain with Music
It's official: Brahms is the balm. Cleveland Clinic researchers recently found that when people with loused-up lumbar regions listened to music for 1 hour every day, they experienced a 20 percent reduction in back pain after just 1 week. "The effect may simply be due to music distracting your mind--or it could be that it induces muscle relaxation," says study author Sandra Siedlecki, Ph.D., R.N. "New studies that examine the effect of music on stress hormones such as cortisol may shed more light."

Make it work for you:
Don't just flick on the radio and leave your relief to chance. In the study, those who chose their own tunes experienced significantly greater pain relief than the people given songs selected by the researchers. And it didn't matter if the self-styled DJs listened to heavy metal or light pop. "Different types of music had similar effects," says Siedlecki. So make a mix of your desert-island favorites and press "play" when back pain hits. But keep the volume in check: Research shows that loud sounds--even the toe-tapping kind--can raise cortisol levels, possibly negating any benefit.


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